parenting

  • All By My Lonesome.

    Considering self-soothing, attachment, and transformation. Part 1 : Bears.  Can I tell you a story? It’s about a very young, very shy little girl who felt alone, unloved, and often unsafe. A little girl who, rather than seeking reassurance from her family, learned to tolerate those troubled feelings by sucking her thumb and desperately…

  • Happy St Jude’s Day

    Happy St Jude’s day to you all!  Today I registered for spring classes here at DCCC, and I am over the moon about how much I love school and how good it feels to flex in this way. I am killin it. I am writing all the time. I am taking good care of…

  • Hospice, Take 2

    Three of Swords from Tarot of Mystical Moments by Catrin Welz-Stein, Reversed. Hospice for Haters Hospice for the Hopeless Hospice for Healers? The last syringe of morphine I administered to my mother on her deathbed was met with a clamped jaw, pursed, unyielding lips, and tears rolling down her cheeks. I will probably never…

  • On Losing a Mother

    Writings from April to June, 2025 [Nine of Swords from Tarot of Mystical Moments by Catrin Welz-Stein] My mom died six months ago, right before Christmas of 2024.  And I have a confession.  But first, allow me to state a few things before I share my admission. I want and need to, so you…

  • Sad face. Covid-19 style.

    In the days leading up to the covid-19 social isolation, I felt a distinct thrill like you might on the eve of a snow day or the moment the lights go out and you have to find the candles, but as I face this first full day, I just have to say that I…