Special Torture (or how to grin and bear it)

Category Archives: infertility

A reversal of fortune?

August 3, 2012 | health, infertility, life | Permalink

Dare I dream? I’d better not, but I can at least pat myself on the back for self advocacy. In addition to deciding that I needed a second opinion, I also emailed my Interventional Radiologist, Dr T, requesting that he put me in touch with his colleague who does fallopian tube recanalization. Recanalization is any procedure that literally reopens […]

A second opinion

August 2, 2012 | health, infertility, life | Permalink

It’s time for a second opinion. I could list all the things that my reproductive endocrinologist has done, not done, said, not said, forgotten, glossed over, fucking made light of,  or simply shrugged off, and maybe you would get how disappointed and angered I am by this woman, but well, it’s a long list.  I am not even […]


August 1, 2012 | health, infertility, life | Permalink

So the good news is that I wont be taking any fertility drugs. Whew. The bad news is I wont be participating in the AMIGOS study.  I did not qualify. Not because I have an obstructed fallopian tube. Not because I had a grapefruit sized cyst on my right ovary. Not because I have crappy hormone levels. Not […]


July 31, 2012 | health, infertility, life | Permalink

We are going tomorrow to see if we qualify for a that study that would give us four months of IUI with fertility drugs. I have never been so torn about anything. Never wanted to do and not do something so equally in my entire life. Well, that’s not true. I really don’t want to do this, not at all, but I would […]

Lessons in compromise. And in eating your words.

July 25, 2012 | infertility, life | Permalink

When I first started thinking about having a family – this was in my late 20s or early 30s – I was exceptionally vocal about how I would never take fertility drugs. I thought it was selfish and foolhardy to do so. Why risk bringing more than one baby into this world when there were already too many who needed good homes. I […]

A little History

July 25, 2012 | health, infertility, life | Permalink

So here is the scoop… I am 38, well I was 37 when we started. In early spring of 2011, my beau and I stopped using birth control. By June, I decided I wanted to have a better idea of how shit worked so, by July I had a full month of fertility charting. By the time October […]

Unlucky 13

July 24, 2012 | infertility, life | Permalink

It’s been 13 months. More maybe, but 13 for sure. 13 attempts. 13 charts. 13 thermal shifts. 13 two-week-waits. 13 periods. 13 failures.  13 heartbreaks. Fuck 13.